I want to SCREAM!!!

You know those smash rooms? The ones you can smash shit? Yeah. I need one of those right now. It’s finals week and I’m doing my best to not have a total fucking meltdown. But you know what’s worse? Having “friends” who don’t give one iota rats ass about you or your life. I’m guessing it’s because 1) I don’t have kids so my life as a single person isn’t significant. Or 2) everyone thinks I can handle my shit. Or 3) people don’t give a shit. I’ll take number three for one million, Alex! People really don’t give a shit. A piece of advice I was given many years ago and still rings true today – “not everyone is as considerate as you are.” But why the fuck not??? Shouldn’t we love one another, care for one another, look out for one another? But I digress. I had a bad day today. Reached out to a few friends. Told them I was having a bad day. And guess what? No one gave a fuck. No one called. No one. Not a soul. I’m very stuck in why doesn’t my life matter? And I wonder – will they show up to my funeral? I doubt it. They’ll probably just send a text.