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Maybe I’m a brilliant writer…

But I’m so fucking lazy.

Losing things or losing my mind?

Misplacing things is such a drag. My home and car are always locked, so I can’t claim theft, or can I?

Congratulations!!!

Whenever I see/hear/read/learn that someone I know, whether close or casually, are getting married, I of course, wish them a heartfelt congratulations. But underneath my veiled attempt and being happy for them, I silently say: welcome to hell, have fun dealing with another family who may or may not like you, here’s to dealing with…

Hey Andrew!

Saw John Legend tonight. He played “Ordinary People.” The lyrics still resonate, but in a different way. While I wanted to have a cleansing cry, and I did cry, it wasn’t for my transgressions; rather it was for the fact that you could never be who you claimed to be. So many tears for nothing.…

Curious

If you tell your “friends for life” that your partner’s dad is dying, would that warrant a fucking phone call? Why are texts the only way people show concern anymore? What a shitty world we live in today. Zero concern, zero love, zero connection. I’m pissed.

Keys

Everyone has keys – keys to your home, office, and maybe if you have an older car, car keys. Maybe you have keys to a safety deposit box, keys to a safe, keys to maybe you have a vacation home – more keys. Maybe you’re a facilities manager- you have tons of keys. And what…

Hi dad

Need to say something to you: licking my face was never funny. It felt gross. Why did you do that? did you think it was funny? Thought it would bring us closer together? It was so gross. You…terrible parent…why did you want kids? I ache for normal parents. Why was I born to terrible parents?

Unresolved Trauma

I just realized today, TODAY, after years and years of therapy, that I am trying to heal my father. He’s gone now, but the three most important/longest relationships in my life were with men that are an only child. Just like my father. #mindblown What does that mean? Probably that I’m trying to heal my…

Working

Why why why!!!!??? Why when I work my side gig am I always given the crap gigs??? I can’t for the life of me understand why this happens all the damn time. Problem: I need money. Problem: I have a terrible generational curse (thanks dad). And yet allllll the work of done: therapy, praying to…

Guess it’s time